Darling I lied to you, every time I said you were the best thing that has ever happened to me. I lied to you, nodding my head, when you asked me if I was happy with you. I lied to you, when I said I understand all the reasons when you didn’t call. Or drop a text.
And worst, I lied to you, even as I walked away, when I made you believe that for the brief time we were together, we loved truly.
For you never really loved me. It was always her. The one you couldn’t have. And I just happened to be that girl who looked so much like her.
Albeit, it was me, I lied to the most. As I ignored all the rotten parts of you which reeked of disloyalty, manipulation and lechery. And every time my instincts warned me against every single word you spoke, I blocked the voices, muffling their screams as I let you prevaricate me into prejudice.
You see, I wasn’t naive, just hopeful. Thinking it would last, if we wouldn’t give up. But baby you had other plans.
And so, known for your sardonic ways, you decide to show up, begging me for another chance. Another chance to play, another to ruin. But I know better and it’s been awhile, long enough for me to accept certain reality. A reality in which I’ve outgrown the toxins. Outgrown you. Truth be told, you’re just a boy. A silly sad boy. Troubled in your own way, as you fail to make peace with your demons. Thus, I do not hate you or curse you ill fate. I only wish you wake up from your slumber. I hope you make your way home. Sober. And never look for me again.
Because darling I’m done. I’m done being in love with you & I’ve never been more honest with myself.
wonderful powerful words.
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I’m glad you found them so. Thanks for reading.♥
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Poignant writing… moving piece. Thanks for stopping by, kind of you to read my poems. 🙂
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Thanks a lot Iris. Your words of praise always push me to work better. 😊
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Most welcome, Monica. 😃
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There are no coincidences. -Baptist De Pape.
I was meant to read this, it helped me understand. 🙂
Honestly written, touched my heart. ❤
Thankyou so much for spamming me with a ton of likes. Appreciated. 🙂
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Lol. I have a bad habit to spam. And when it’s you, I just couldn’t stop. I’m just amazed how frequently you write, every post so beautifully crafted. If only people could be that dedicated to their work, let alone me. It would’ve made a huge difference. ♥😊
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Me too, honestly 🙂 My, my your compliments make me blush. Thankyou so much. I love the aesthetics of your blog too much. I adore the content. I guess I am starting like you a lot, my friend. 🙂 Stay Beautiful. ❤
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Very authentic and well written
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So many young women learn about men the hard way…and harden their hearts against further pain…understandable…BUT later in life when a older man comes along with all the attributes you desire…will you run because you assume he’s fake?
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Powerful writing. I love the strength in saying, “I’ve had enough.”
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Thanks for reading. It’s indeed powerful when one’s sure of what they deserve.
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When a woman has that resolve, nothing can shake it.
Powerful words.
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Namaste!
Happy July. 🙂
I’ve nominated you for the following awards.
The link of the post is here: https://walkingtomydreams13.wordpress.com/2017/07/04/july-3/
Cheers to you. 💋
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You have cluster-bombed my blog with Likes and I like you more for doing that than I like my own feeble attempt to bring you to my notice by dropping a single Like on this post. Still, I brought you to me and you brought me, in turn, back to you and …
Oh, all I really want to say is that you are a talented writer and … and that’s it for now. 🙂
Kindness – Robert.
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This is really beautiful
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This is really very beautiful 🙂
Its been very beautifully written and expressed 🙂 As i am new here looking forward for your valueable feedback in my blog
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Nicely written
Perhaps a confirmation that love is forever!
Ooops, am I right????
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I still hold my doubt on the forever part. For I haven’t experienced love that came and never left.
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I recently read somewhere that you fall in true love thrice.
That could mean two breakups and one forever.
Or let’s consider my point of view- true love is forever, one two or three 😊
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I recently read that you fall in true love thrice.
That means two breakups and one to last.
Or like I believe, true love is forever. And hence all the three can be forever 😊
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Very bold and outstanding write up..keep writing
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That’s very generous of you. Elated to make an acquaintance of you. 💯
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My pleasure too..:)
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Reminds me of me once upon a time not too long ago…
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Reblogged this on Ancien Hippie.
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Love the post. Keep writing
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I shall. Thanks for such words.☑😊
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Vehemently beautiful!
I have always loved ur anecdotes, they are just superb; very evidently they come from someone who reads and thinks and feels a lot.
Keep them flowing…. have a great day 🙂
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Thanks a lot Saransh, your words always leave a positive impact on me and make me wish to writer better. 😊
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😀 😀
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Very true Monica, we lie ourselves each time despite the repeated alarm by our mind. We choose not to see and hear the obvious. It’s okay to be blind in love but not okay to be deaf and dumb. Thank you for making this post profound yet simple, truthful yet elegant. Look forward for more of you
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It’s good to know that people understand. I try my best to articulate.
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