“No escape would get you peace, if your mind is at chaos.”

What difference would it make? You thought you’ll be better off the drama that’s presently eating you inside out. Away from the means, two faced people you just don’t understand. You constantly ask yourself, how should you react? Ignore & act as if they don’t exist? But darling they do. You are supposed to counter them every day, work with them and to cause no scenes; you got to pretend that you’re fine, past the hurt, past the bearings. You know it all; you have to face them eventually. But aren’t we all afraid of the outcome?

The outburst after holding on for so damn long. The breakdown after pretending that it didn’t get to you. Playing the lone wolf – because you’ve had enough. You’re done talking, making efforts, you can’t take anymore.

You get away out of the blue because all along you thought of an escape. The instant you get the offering, you’re gone.  Now you’re here, and you’re all about enjoying the journey and getting the answers to all your problems. Isn’t it why we think of an escape in the first place? To get a break, certainly more time to think things through and a way to settle everything just right.

The journey begins- you start with noticing the details; the pattern of the clouds, wilderness of the woods, chattering of people, children passing by. You heed their faces, their expressions speaking of a story untold; you realize it’s not just you who are struggling but every person breathing.

Deep in your thoughts, you’re back to thinking about them, the very reason of this sudden getaway in the first place. If things would’ve been fine you’d have enjoyed this journey or maybe wouldn’t need one. You tell yourself that you hate them because of the hurt but deep inside you know you don’t. You’re dying to know if they’re affected with you leaving.  Do they miss you; Are they sorry for their doings? Do you even matter to them? You secretly wish them to apologize and admit their doings but was it just their fault? What if you’re equally responsible for this mess?

Introspect. How’d have things turned if you’d reacted differently? What are you upset about if it isn’t your guilt eating you? You definitely aren’t enjoying the getaway if you’re still bothered and your mind still chaotic. You know they matter, even if not, you need to settle things out with them for your own peace. Be spiritual, let go of the negative vibes, if not be practical in order to sustain in such a competitive world. You cannot break down, you should not. It’s just a phase in your life and it will pass. You’ll get better and wiser. Tackle the situation and put the experience in your life’s C.V.  Forgive those people, forgive yourself.  It’s just human nature; we let down the one’s we care most about and often hurt people unknowingly.  But just because of few sour happenings we cannot give up hope on care and affection.

So now when you’ll get back in your daily routine, remind yourself that you’re strong, and doesn’t hold any grudges towards anyone. Smile away the hurt and eventually you’ll be fine in time.

 At last, do not forget, there’s a part in all of us that’s scared, unsure and broken but when you get the ability to see that in yourself, you start to see that everyone is fighting every day. So, instead of saying you’re breaking and can’t take it anymore, think of the time when you helped your mother when she was at her lowest, when you corrected your best mate out of doing something horrible, when despite of your own mental breakdown, you kept going. You survived. So, be good to yourself, and make peace with your demons.

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42 Comments Add yours

  1. prashantt says:

    First,I wanted to thank you for stopping by my blog and i got oppurtunity to visit your wonderful blog.This is profound piece of writing & I like the end part most👌🙌👍📝

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    1. Monica says:

      I’m elated to heed that you liked my work. I shall work on the improvements and continue writing. It was really generous of you to stop by and spare time reading and commenting. Thanks a lot.💭💌💛

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      1. prashantt says:

        Pleasure is mind,keep writing!!👍😊

        Like

  2. This is profoundly intriguing without a doubt ….. just the kind I needed at this hour :)…loved it

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    1. Monica says:

      I’m glad to know you could relate to it and if this helped you even a bit. Thank you for stopping by and sparing time to read. 💭😊

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      1. No, Thank u ..it did….looking forward to more of ur stuffs 🙂

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  3. Miriam says:

    This is a lovely piece of writing Monica. Yes, be kind to yourself, we only get one shot at this life.

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    1. Monica says:

      I’m delighted to know that you liked it. It’s very important for each one of us to know we are worthy of love, care and kindness and for that we should start by appreciating oneself. Thank you for stopping by and sharing your view. 💭😊🍁

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      1. Miriam says:

        It’s my pleasure Monica. Take care. xo

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  4. Wonderful post, practical and down to earth. And very true too, well written. Best wishes

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    1. Monica says:

      Thanks for the words of praise. I’m glad you liked it. 😊💭

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      1. Thank you too 🙂

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  5. you know my name. says:

    Deactivated instagram? O.o

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    1. Monica says:

      Yep. Not sure if I’d return.

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  6. stacilys says:

    Lovely post Monica. And you have a very lovely blog.
    🙂

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    1. Monica says:

      I’m glad you appreciated it. I really like reading your literary works, hope you post more…keep writing.💭😊

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      1. stacilys says:

        Thank you so much Monica. I usually post about once a week. I would love to post daily, however time is my biggest enemy and what I lack. Hahaha. I guess that’s the issue for most of us eh.
        I noticed the red maple leaf on your blog. Are you from Canada?
        🙂

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      2. Monica says:

        Well, I hail from India. I used maple leaf on my blog cause I have a thing for autumn and maple leaves. So it was actually random.

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      3. stacilys says:

        Ohhhhh, haha. Where in India are you from? I lived in Jaipur for almost three months back in 2008. I have also traveled to Calcutta, Darjeeling and Pedong.
        🙂

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      4. Monica says:

        Mumbai, Maharashtra… It’s a great place.

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  7. The post is beautiful but I liked the title most

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    1. Monica says:

      Elated to hear that. Titles are always the hard part, depicting your whole post in one life. Good to know you liked it. 😊💭

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      1. Yes seriously. ..its kind of touched my heart ..very eye catching

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  8. Ur a deep thinker…aren’t u Mon?

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    1. Monica says:

      Aren’t we all? The one that writes. 💭📝😊

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      1. I find you a little ++ which can be good sometimes 🙂

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  9. Unmesh Phule says:

    “make peace with your demons”
    Simply wonderful. Very thought provoking and extremely well written, you are good, keep writing. 🙂

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    1. Monica says:

      Thanks for sparing time to the read. I shall continue writing. 😊

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  10. This is honestly powerful

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    1. Monica says:

      Thank you. I’m glad you feel that way.😊

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    1. Monica says:

      Thank you for such a kind gesture and your words! I’m elated.😊💭

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      1. Well I can’t wait to read more of your words and thoughts your amazing.

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      2. No need to thank me just keep writing please sweety.

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  11. Leen says:

    This is great! Really.

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  12. Nishita13 says:

    Dear Monica ❤
    I needed to read this, just like I need to breathe oxygen. I think at a point in life, you lose it all for bad or for good. You lose yourself, want to escape, let go, cut relations, but honestly it is we (ourselves) who is at fault, who is found guilty. I had the opportunity to go through this exercise 2 weeks ago, it was very important for me. And today, I am in love again, this time with the same people respecting their mistakes, inabilities and talents. Running away doesn't solve anything, it just deepens some cuts. Thankyou!
    Cheers ❤

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    1. Monica says:

      I’m glad you could relate. Even better that you found it worthy. Life is hard and it’s the tough moments which makes it unbearable but then again we’re given this one life, and we certainly couldn’t let the bad parts sabotage the good one’s. It’s all about fighting, surviving and loving for the good moments, good people and most of importantly yourself. ♥

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      1. Nishita13 says:

        Rightly said. We were born to make mistakes, pick ourselves and carry on. Yes, Self Romance is important. ❤

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  13. Amal Suresh says:

    Absolutely great post. Keep up the good work✌

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